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Monday, May 01, 2006

Mon, 01 May 2006 02:41:25 GMT

I need to drain my brain before I can write this paper. I need to let go of everything that’s spinning me in these concentric spirals, now that’s fun mental image now ain’t it?
I hate not being able to handle things, or i hate reaching a point where no matter how good something may be it’s just too much, because i can handle alot, but if it’s focused to a point it’ll cut right through.
So lets start this off wrong, naturally that’s how I tend to do things, eh? No, no i’ll take that back and just be vague. My relationships compeltely changed, i went through and I looked at who was important to me and who wasn’t. And who i had a reciprocal frienship with, who i could talk to and who i couldn’t, and I took my buddy list and organized it so that the really important people were in one list and my other good firends were on another list. Think three lists totaling 159 people (that i talk to) that i took down to those two lists with a combined total 38 as of now. Now that’s one hell of a jump now isn’t it? Like i said I completely reviewed that whole process of things.
Then you may, and probably should know that I was the president of the ACM (Association for computing machinery) and now elections were coming up and I didn’t think that I had anyone running against me, and naturally I don’t check the website becuase a. I’m president, I innately know what’s going on and B. i’m not the webperson so I don’t handle it. Well little did I know that I had Kate running against me and Andrew was running as VP. So kate ran as pres and had a speech and did quite well and I had nothing and so yes, I’ve lost my club. my baby, my pride and fucking joy. Oh well shit happens right? Fucking ay, oh well now i’m “Secretary/Treasurer” there’s my kind of thing… yeah right.
Now lets cap off this with the final really big change in my life. I’m leaving my current job as Technician and Applying for and definately getting a job as a SAL tech. This sucks in a way because I love my job, i love the people, i have the coolest bosses anyone could ask for. I’ve got near complete flexibiity with hours and just a great working environment in general, but I don’t want to do tech support and hardware/software troubleshooting for the rest of my life. I want to write code, I want to write programs that make peoples lives easier, i want to write code that manages thousands of people or systems and does so flawlessly. So for as much as i’m going to hate leaving, i have to, it’s just that time for me to move on. Haha, and on the shallow side the $10 and hour is certainly going to help my monetary sitiuation even more.
Hopefully i’ll manage to swing saving up that 15K by the time i’m out of college, however If i manage 10K by the end of the summer, i’m dropping 1.2k on a ticket to New Zeland, and then taking another 1K as spending money and hotel money and whatnot. I figure i’ll take the opportunity to look at jobs, areas to live, and all sorts of things, lol and get some Kiwi pictures. But I want out of this Dead end United States.
We’re going down the tubes so fast it scares the shit out of me, i’ve been tempted to up and leave now, but the tech industry in where I was looking (austrailia) was saturated to a frightening degree. It bothers me that upping and leaving didn’t really bother me all too much. Now however, There are certain people here who give me a great reason to stay, haha or bring them with me, but I don’t think they could, i don’t think they’re the up and leave type. Oh well, looks like when i move i’ll be going it alone… am I suprised? Not one tiny bit.

I hate how I don’t really feel much better after all that. Oh well maybe it’ll be enough. And now I leave you with some lyrics. Now Please DO NOT READ INTO THESE LYRICS.
Girl, you look like you might be an angel
So I won’t lie
I could love you like the devil
if you wanted me to tonight
And we could talk about forever for a day or two
But I still got a lot of leavin’ left to do
Don’t bite off more than you can chew,
There’s things down here the devil himself wouldn’t do,
Just remember when you let it all go,
What happens in Mexico,
Stays in Mexico
But You’d really love to know
You’d really love to climb
Your way into my heart
And see what you could find
Youd’d walk into my skin
Swim through my veins
See it from my eyes
But it’s dangerous to try

Homeward Bound

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 08:15:43 GMT

So Sunday was yet another cool day.
We woke up at 10:00 to the sound of Dom's phone ringing in the other room so we headed over and got it and it was Jackie's parents. They invited us over for dinner so we scheduled that for around 6:00.
We decided that we needed to go out for breakfast and we chose IHOP, and Dom provided the directions. She did well too, the last time she was there was the day that she got slasher, i do miss that cute liddle thing.
Anywhoo so at IHOP the service sucked, the food was mediocre but all in all it was just nice to sit and talk in a Dinerish environment, they really need better diners by TCNJ if you ask me. I miss the hell out of those places, maybe I'll own one when I get older, could be pretty cool i guess.

We headed right out to bluestone after breakfast and hung around and took pictures and played with the horses and the dogs. I really do love like every animal ever.
Sprocket was there in a, hey lets love everyone sort of mood, haha he even liked Dom while i was there, he's one of my fav liddle buddies.

After bluestone we went out for a drive then headed back to collect jackie's stuff, on the way back we got one of the cutest pics of Abner. I was driving and i just feel him lay his head on my shoulder, it was definately a Kodak moment.

So we get jackie home and Dom and I schmooze with her parents and found out that oddly enough we like the same things, namely Travelling. So we talked a ton about the places that they've been and the places that we've been. So after Sr. year how bout a cruise eh?
There was so much said and talked about that I could detail it for many paragraphs however, there's no real need. You'll end up hearing about all of it eventually when Dom and I go through and do it all. So I think that we decided on a cruise after Sr. year, perhaps this will be my motivation to graduate in 4 years.

So we end up heading home after many stories and whatnot, and I was goign back onto 31 and ended up making a wrong turn so naturally i made the best of it and we went to starbucks and sat down and chatted for a while about whatever came to mind.

After that we headed back and procrastinated some more.
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So then we get back onto campus and I find out that Tammy has now taken to not speaking with me for some reason that she wouldn't say. Great best friend eh? Ugh don't even get me started on how much that bothers me, i mean seriously nothing is worse than when i'm in here and she completely refuses to admit my existance. We talked about this, we were all ok with this, we knew it was probably coming, and you were worried about ME ignoring you... yeah, that's not my style, and I didn't think it was hers either. She says how she hates when people do that to her so why go and pull that same thing to someone else, i mean seriously, Tammy was like my frist real Best Friend that was a girl... and then this shit? Just goes to show why I try not to get close to girls. Too catty. Oh well maybe it'll just blow over???
Then we headed over to her room so she could write two papers before 10 and after she finished we ended up laying around and talking and whatnot. Again, sleep? What's that?

Horses and Love

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 07:32:18 GMT

So saturday rolls around, and Naturally because dom and I got to bed somewhere around 4:30 am technically saturday though it never feels like the next day till you wake up.

Ooh oooh, so guess who woke up at 6:30, and ooh guess who got out of bed first. Yeah that's right me, meee. It was one of those incredible days when i was capable of waking up. So we get packed up head out and then get to the car, and drive behind cromwell and drop off Dom, heh she forgot her camera and we couldn't have that happen.

So she goes off and I take this time to exercise my incredible skillage at giving tours.
"So that's cromwell as you know"
"Mail room"
"Facilities"
"Spiritual Center"
"ABE"
"Tree"
"Sign"
"Tree"
"Lightpost"
"Loser hall"
"Tree"
"Parking lot"
"Sign"
"Tree"
"Lightpost"

Ohh it was fantastic. The ride there wasn't eventful, just a nice ride. And we made it, exactly on time. Lol they call me "The Master of All Things Driven" though I'd love to try a dump truck, however I digress.

We watched the horses and they all trained and everything and they were snapping pictures alot and I got Abner *smile* ohh man i'm soo going to own dogs when I get older, I love those friendly guys. Oooh big news jackie

So we hung around and whatnot then naturally went to McDonalds next, and we hung out and talked, and I came up with the best idea i've ever had I think. There's so many children in the world we need something productive for them to do. So get this we got jackie
Seeing eye CHILDREN.
We'll tell them it's a game, they'll love it and think that it's so much fun. Ahh man, children...maybe i'll have them some day? It all depends... I'm considering children... odd, in a good way???
Anywhoo when we were in McDonalds it started to rain so Dom decided that she wasn't going to go ride Ozzy at all.

So we decide to head out and naturally this leads us to USET, which conviently has a locked gate now So Dom told us that she'd heard of a back way in so we go off and look for it, and really had one heck of an adventure which was fun. However we never find it.
Then I got the worlds brightest idea ever.
"Why don't we just park here and walk in"
*sputter*
"I've been saying that for the past 5 minutes!!!" (dom)
"Heh really??? Whoops..."
So we walked up the road to USET and came up behind the barn from the back of the dressage arena. It was one heck of a nice view. Damn I need to pick out my new camera. So we walked around, and they wanted to go in and check the barn out.
So we walk in and I checked the door for an alarm and didn't find any, so we stroll in walk around then i see that they have thier security system set to alert and that it's got motion detectors saying that there's movement in the main hallway, so i was like, hey guys, lets go.
No cops but we did see 2 other cars whom gave us dirty looks but that's ok they're not cool, i'm sure of it.

We headed off to the breeding farm which is always a nice visit. I just hung around really and kept Abner out of the mud i mean, really I don't want the nice black seats in my amazing little baby getting muddied or anything like that, really knock it if you want to but that's my baby and i'm going to take care of her, yes my maternal instinct transfers over to cars too.

So after the breeding farm we head back home to my house before school in the pouring rain towards my house. By the time we get there it's slowed down mostly. So i left my window open so that Jackie didn't suffocate in the car with Abner. Dom and I head in and I give her the quick tour of the place, it was pretty cool, you kmnow the standard this is the house, this is all the horse stuff, this is my very very very green room. This is also the messiest room ever. And then we headed back out because we didn't want jackie to get too bored. We also picked up my movies and brought them back so that we'd have them available to be watched.

So we're on the way home and we end chatting and whatnot and some how we came to the topic of "bonding." And I mentioned that she never bonded with me other than that one night after i was on the phone with manda and she was like, well it's SCARY bonding with you. Hah, i was only midly offended, but no biggie. So we kept chatting about regular things as as we're going up Readington Rd we passed the place where that fucken stumnp used to be that I got in the big accident with and i told dom and much to my surpise I found out that Dom didn't know a thing about my Accident, the what happened or the why, or about Uncle bob or anything (some how that just came up), and she naturally tried to be like "Ohh you don't tell me anything" and jackie came in with the biggest and best save ever.
"Well if you ever bonded wtih him you'd know"
Biiig props on that one to Jackie, it was great. Anywhoo after that we ended up getting behind this horse trailer so naturally we decided that we should follow it so I did. And we wanted to find out where it was going so it pulled into a gas station, i followed and I went over and chatted for a bit and found out that they were from Jackson and that they came up here for a lesson, haha ohh the interesting parts of life.

We get back to school and I've got to head out to an AXP rush event at 9:00. So we get back and decided that we absolutely needed a nap so we turned on The saint and laid down, and we all passssed out. I woke up for rush thing and got out there on time and it was pretty cool.

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I get back and we all plunk down to watch american beauty and then after that we turned on the Family guy movie, it was fantastic.
Giggidy

Dom and I got to bed around 7:00am

Kidnapping a RedCoat and a Blackie (Friday)

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 01:53:20 GMT

So this entry is for friday. What happened during the day is really completely unimportant not only because of the fact that I simply don’t remember it but also because of the very simple fact that, we were kidnapping Dom’s friend that she’d never met in real life. Ohh boy did we hope that she wasn’t a 40 year old man with a shotgun in disguise.
So I managed to get out of work an hour early because I’ve got the best Geology group ever (<3 Meg lab partner) and we just burned through those rock identification and I got to work a full hour early, thus i got out an hour early.
So I pop into work and you know, work, then head out get my stuff, and get ready to head out and Dom and I leave for Jackie’s. We get out to the elevator then realize that we (I) forgot to get the directions, heh so we go and get them and head out again. So as we’re going the back was up to lot 6 and we just begin to cross the road that leads to packer ciricle we realize that we forgot the mp3 player…. that is a big no no but dom was all we’re already sort of late and we can’t go back and we just don’t have time and we’ll just make sure that we have it next time, so i was like ugh…. ok.
So we head out and I had one of my older mix cd’s from back in the days of yore when laura and I were together and so it was a reasonably ok mix, nothing like my really good ones now but still quite good.
So we’re driving down the PA part of 95. We’re just passing a dump truck that’s in the right lane and there’s a Volvo station wagon off to the front and right and there’s a chevy trailblazer, and out of no where, the station wagon just cuts hard left and the trailblazer pulls a really quick really smooth move to get out of the way and the station wagon realizes at that last minute “oh shit” and pulls back and the trailblazer pulls back and somehow everyone ended up being fine. It was an odd sort of feeling that I got, i didnt’ get scared i just sort of cursed braced and downshifted so that i could stop quicker or attempt to pull through an opening, all in all everything ended up being ok so that’s good.
So we get to take our favorite road in the world the PA Turnpike (276).
“Bryce do you have easy pass?”
“Easy Pass only”
“Bryce, Easy pass only”
“Huh?”
“Bryce do you have easy pass?”
“Oh shit…”
*slams brakes*
*slams reverse*
*Peels backwards*
*burns copious rubber forwarding into a lane with tickets*
“Well that was easy.”

From there it was just a cruise and the allentown exit and a few turns and we were there. It was great just sitting back, sunroof open (and to think i used to be so opposed to sunroofs) and just drive. It’s one of those simply incredible thing to just drive and blast music and smile, and live, I desperately wish that you all learn not just what it’s like to live, but to truely be alive.

We were going through and driving and we almost missed the turn on to kreiball, So we turned around and then made the turn and caught back on all the directions.

“Hey guys you know what street this is?”
“Ahh, never mind!”

And in less than three minutes we were outside of Jackie’s house. So the plan was for me to chill out side with Abner, that went for them to come back out and off we head.

Plans never go how you want them to so I end up spending an inordinate amount of time chillen with the cute puppy outside and then her dad comes out and brings him in so i proceed to continue standing there like a douche, and i decided to make myself alternate between looking busy on my phone and making phonecalls. All in all it worked out well. I got called over to talk her Mom and that was nice, I found out then that her husband worked for a large computer company and worked on just about all the technical aspects that interest me so I was excited to get to talk to him more later.

So eventually we head out, with Abner, due to some very slick talking by Dom, lol what a suprise she got what she wanted " class="wp-smiley"> . So we head home, and it was a nice painless trip. On the way back we Stopped by bluestone and saw that College Park had a baby which we now affectionately call College Party. Ohh man that’s one hell of a cute foal.

Naturally after that we had to take Jackie to the one and only place where people go for food around TCNJ. Yes, you guessed it, Taco Bell, it was a great old time, and I realy really love those crunchwrap supeme things, they’re simply fantastic provided you remind them to take off the tomato.

So we head back to the dorms and chill and watch movies. It was a good night.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 06:57:18 GMT

So today/yesterday was a simple day. I didn't do much in particular. I went to bed at 8:00am and woek up at 11:00 did a bunch of work around here then headed out to the ACM meeting and that went well. Looks like we're definately going to try and do a "Wing and swing" to generate interestet and test the waters for "wings and swings" during finals week. This is going to be interesting to try and get approved and whatnot.

Anyway, after that I headed off to the studio and worked on my project till class started then did some really really cool stuff in class with photoshop. I think i'm definately going to be able to have some awesome photo's after I get this new camera.I'm really looking at this sweet kodak because it's better than all the comparitively priced nikons, and cannons.

Well I'm off to actually go look at that instead of going to bed because I can't seem to do that too well anymore. Heh Dom's gonna have a hell of a time waking me up tomorrow... sorry Dom, i have a feeling you'll read this before you wake me up.

Lol i swear i need to be supervised even to do something simple like go to bed. Haha, anywhoo niight all.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 12:06:16 GMT

(tuesday)
I find it interesting that I want to kill fewer people when I say less. I think i'm going to start being quiet a bit more, who knows though we'll see wehre it goes.
So I was in Ethnicity Race and Nation today (2:00pm-5:00pm) and there was this example on the board that she showed only white on black violence. It was a quiet example in the sense that it didn't say that it was just illustrating prejudice/non-prejudice and bigotry/non-bigotry. And the opening of the discussion. Then as they were soely using exmples of "white on black" violence and I brought that up and no one noticed it till I said something. It made me proud so i figured i'd bore you guys with the story <3.

So today is the AXP Rush so that should be really fun. I don't really know what to expect for now but Timmy and I are going and it should be a good time.

Oooooh and I'm getting married(!?) to Karolyn or so I've heard. Though i've never talked to her or anything like that, she's a gold-digger so i figure I'll only meet her after i'm rich.

Wow so ummm Dom just came in here. We came to a pretty cool decision. I'm going to buy her a horse farm in Saratoga with 2 horses not necessairly of good lineage, claimers are cool. And she'd be saddle training my 4-6 arabians and my 2-4 clydesdales. I pay initial property and facilites and she does the rest. Haha, however the provisio is that she changes her attitude so we'll have to see how this goes, it should be pretty good.
xanga.c60
Well timmy and I are heading off to the AXP rush, so i'll come back and tell you all how it goes.
(wedbnesda)
Wow. wow, wow, that was soo much fun, i'm still a bit not me self because of it. BUt man was that great, we had a great time playing dodge ball in the decker main lounge and then after that we went back to the house and chilled for a while. Then after that we wnet through and hung out for a whil eand chilled then we headed otu to Pat's for the best cheesesteakes ever in life. I looove philly. IT'ss just spectacular. Well i'm gonna go to bed riiiight now cuz i'm exhausted. AXP rush... .ohh yes.

Yeah go to bed?? What's that? Dom and I ended up staying up literally the entire night, and proceeded to go and take sunrise pictures then get breakfast. You couldn't possibly understand the complex coolness and dismay from the whole sitiuation, and this is why i'm going to bet at 8am. Good night for sure all.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 18:56:31 GMT

So lets do some catching up on this bloging thing right now. Lets look at friday... nothing really fun to report during the day, just worked and went to class and whatnot. Then I went out with tammy meg and Sharon to the Swimhouse which was pretty cool till some kid got smashed in the face and the cops came, damn dumb kids now a days, so i just went on back to the dorm to find Tom had just IMed tammy to say that he had Post-It. That furry little devil had escaped from its cage that had a triscuit box on top and began to wonder, and found himself at Tom's foot. So i collected Post-It and then went into dom's room and found rib, and caught him then put them both in the tank and wedged the triscuit box and the tin above them. And that held them for the weekend.

After that I headed back to Tammy's room and she went back out to PhiAlphaDelta, and I headed out to see Kelly for a bit. Then she had to bounce so I headed back to tammy's room then I headed off to bed after doing a bit of DA which I desperately need to catch up on.

Speaking of DA I'm on a camera hunt so we'll see how that goes, I'm just looking at some decent Canon and Nikon cameras.

Then Saturday was pretty cool I headed out to the Scholars reception and that went well, there ended up being three kids total so that was right around norm, hell maybe even a bit high. Then I headed back to the dorm to get my keys and then I headed back home. I stopped by Borders and got to see Laura, it was nice, got to catch up a little but then I had to head out to pick up Regan because I was seeing her for the day.

So I picked her up and we went to my house. We talked and listened to music for alot of the time which was nice. Then we ended up turning on a movie which was fun. Mr. Deeds rocks hardcore. Anywhoo. We had dinner and hung out and whatnot. Came to some interesting conclusions about me. I'm selfish about one thing really, my freedom. And how i'm not willing to do anything to possibly ruin that. Hmmmm problem with commitment explained perhaps?

Anyway, onto some actually interesting things. We talked alot and it was really quite nice. Then I got her home on time, and headed back and readied my new harddrive for external usage which is pretty damn sweet.

Sunday (ooh that's today) I left my alarms on silent so that sucked hardcore as I didn't wake up as early as i wanted to and so i didn't get to do that reading that i needed to but i should still be able to finish it. Then I picked up Hannah and we went to the mall and saw Underworld:Evolution (the title is something like that) and it was freaking incredible, and it was nice how you didn't have to see the other movie to know what's going on so HP wasn't too lost.

Then I had by far the most embarassing and satisfying exprience of my life. We built a bear. We got a really really cute fuzzy valentiens day bear and then we had to do all this silly stuff for it. Like jump up and down and spin around, and I had to do 2 pushups, and her 2 jumping jacks and it was an all around super fun.

Then we called eric and that went pretty well. He sounds so different, not physically different but mentally different, that worries me... alot, but it could have just been the sitiuation so I won't worry yet. I do love that boy to death.

Then I dropped hannah off at home and headed home for dinner (roast beef.... Yummmmmm) then I headed back to school. Tammy was out with Sharon and Megan and they went to see a concert at the stone pony. So I chilled around for a bit then I went down to meet jeff and give him his harddrive. And naturally I ran into Dom, who loudly decided that my shirt was hideous, well on me it was hideous, the pattter is great, that was the concensus.

So we headed up and I got to look at Dom's camera and whatnot, then I was headed back to Tammys room but tammy was out and becky was out so i plopped down into becky's space for the time being and whatnot. So Dom and I were chatting and being how we are and we came to one of those times with a damn good quote.

"Is this what I get for genuinely liking you?"
"What when?"
"You know we went over this in the car, and you almost hit something."

Lol she does tend to come up with some good ones though. Another great example woudl be.

"So bryce was teaching me stick yesterday, in the dark."

Though Shawn does have one of the best quotes recoreded, because it sounds so good then you think about it.

"Shawn you look a little green"
"What do I have a booger or somethign?"
"No no shawn, envy"

"They're making a male birth control pill, like the day after pill.........Wait... aww shit"

Lol ok ok quote attack over, then I chilled in there till becky came back then I headed in here made some soup and that was it for the night, and now i'm heading off to bed because I'm freaking exhausted. However there is one Piece de resistance (or however you spell that)

DOM PLAYS MAGIC.

DOM PLAYS MAGIC.

Dom plays Magic!!!

Ok i feel better now, lol niight all.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 04:09:19 GMT

Would you Kill for this?

There are moments when
When I know it ends
The world revolves around us
And we're keeping it
Keep it all going
This delicate balance
Vulnerable, all knowing
Sing like you think no one's listening

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 03:48:06 GMT

Wow, this is just one of those days, when you realize that the small bits of future you paint on the wall of your mind is so delicate, because today the canvas turned to water and you watched the wave it formed washed over you and nearly knocked you off of your feet. But you would never fall, oh no, you're too careful for that. I'll miss this, and i'm sorry for the mistakes i'll make because of the mistakes that you made, it's ok, this isn't an end, nor a new beginning, just a fork in the road where we might just meet up later in the future.

Ahh it's the things that I should expect that catch me off guard and the things that shouldn't catch me off guard that do. But no matter. Lol amusing how I graduated 2 years ago and i'm still hearing rumors about myself going around at Central. No i'm not dating anyone, so whichever of you made that up, you're wrong, but really good try.

Anywhoo, this entry sucks far more than I intended for it too, but anyway. School's been going really well, however I just have to make sure that I'm good on the whole doing work thing and i'll be fine. Tomorrrow i'm going to have to get alot done, but that shouldn't be too hard, and I'm going to try and drag Tammy to the "Studio" tomorrow night to work on some photoshop stuff, but i have a feeling that it'll just be me, well looks like on saturday i'll have to schedule regan later because I've got a scholars reception... yay? Meh we'll see how that goes but I can't imagine it going badly, it's just talking to parents and blabbing about the school, not hard. I swear i do too much for that department, but anyway, we'll see where this goes. I've really gotta buckle myself down in some ways, and loosen up in others.

Here's to a new tomorrow.

When all the things that you've been thinking
Have you so confused and so unglued
Your head is spinning
Well we've all felt the same inside
We been on that ledge countless times
You can't make it through this world all alone
Is this thing on at all?
When all your friends don't have the answers
And you're so convinced that inch by inch
They've turned to strangers
We've all seen the different sides
No one hears even though you've talked all night

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise
But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are
So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 16:31:55 GMT

OOoh oooohhhhh I'm gonna blog tonight. Consider yourself warned.